Thinking and Thoughts Worth Thinking: Looking Up

Things are looking up!

I was working at a call center for a few weeks, but just got hired on by another company working for the kind of pay I want: a decent base plus commission and health benefits. YES! Selling insurance is great for the ambitious types that want to make a boat load of money. Let's face it, who wouldn't want a ton of money? I know I could sure use it, but that's not where my drive is. It took a long time, and it was hard, but I finally had to admit to myself it was no longer for me.... or at least for now. I just need a break form door-to-door constant cold calling.

My new job starts on Monday; I'm so excited and nervous!

I found a new place to live and lucky, it's still in my ward's boundaries. Hopefully I'll get moved in this upcoming week sometime. My roommate isn't LDS, but she is a nice, quite, mature gal that's graduating and getting married at the end of this school year. It works out perfect... since, ya know, things are going pretty well with me and Isaac, looks like I'll be needing to move at the end of May as well. Not making any big announcements yet, that's still a few months out. ;)

If you're not on facebook, you should be! I've just posted a ton of pics of me and Isaac. I LOVE HIM!!! Each day that goes by I grow more and more attracted to him.

There is something about me though, I find the closer I get to him, the more I try to push him away. Maybe it has something to do with all my failed relationships. I think it's some sub psychological thing: the greater things are, the more I find something wrong. I even go so far as to pick fights with him about the silliest stupidest things that mean absolutely nothing. I'm just so grateful he's such an understanding and forgiving guy, but everyone has their limits, and I need to somehow find a way to just calm down and let him in.

Isaac and I went to the temple this Friday and did baptisms. Afterwards, he stated that we should try to go once a week together. Funny, it was my idea when I first came to Logan to do baptism once a week since I only live 8 minutes away (rather than the 2 hours in Tucson) from the temple. I've gone three times now, which is about once a month. With Isaac taking 20 credits this semester, and me working 40 hours, I think it'd be a good goal to at least go once a month together, then more if we can individually.

Going to the temple is just a great way to feel the spirit and grow closer to God. Oh! And last Sunday I got my patriarchal blessing! It was so great to hear. It's one of those things I wish I could just share with everyone, the experience and the words, but it's very sacred, spiritual, and personal, only to be shared with close family... unfortunately, most of my close family would have no idea what I am talking about. BUT, I will have the chance to change that... hopefully soon :)

Even though almost none of my family are members of the church, I still love them very much. I call my dad at least once a week to get updates on how the family is doing. The boys (my 4 brothers that still live at home) seem to be doing good. Donovan still loves school (he's 7 years) and Harley (15 years) just started playing football, which is loves almost as much as his girlfriend. The other two should be out of the house, but at least one is going to a community college and the other working towards his GED. The oldest of my brothers is still living in Tucson as far as I know, not sure if he's still married or not... My sister Heather, well, she's still not talking to me, and my oldest sister Dori in Colorado is still living the fun single life. Hopefully I'll get the chance to visit her while I'm doing my training for work in Denver.