Utah Love

It's only been two weeks, but I am absolutely falling in LOVE with Logan, UT/ Northern, UT. 

Seems everything happens for a reason, right? Right?

I feel like I am exactly where I am suppose to be.... still too soon to tell, but it doesn't look like I'll be making in back to Arizona any time soon (except to visit). Only time will tell. :)

Logan

Safe in Logan, Utah. 

So much rain!

Nice cool weather. 

:)

Looking forward to greatness. 

Gossip

Could you go just one day without gossiping or complaining? Half a day? Two days? A week? 

Survival of the fittest teaches us to gossip and complain. How can we know what is better or best if we have nothing to compare ourselves to? So we gossip and slander other people to prove that we are the best. We complain to let other's know how awful our situation is so they might either give us a helping hand, or feel sorry for us, accept us, sympathies, empathize, all so we might know we are "okay." 

Truly, our best source of reference is not the opinions or ears of our friends, but the scriptures. Why do we seek the approval of others? For the reasons I listed above. Since I've become a latter-day saint, I have found my scriptures to be a huge source of my strength. When I start to listen to other friends, especially those not of my faith, or even worse, those who were of my faith at one point but have chose to live alternative lives, my head starts to swarm with all sorts of bad feelings: jealousy, resentment, hurt, anger, confusion, bewilderment, hate. When I turn to my scriptures, I feel at peace, calm, tranquil, empowered, strong, confident, self assured. So why do we continue to turn to the opinions of others? The scriptures are designed to draw us closer to Heavenly Father, so I will let them. My source of happiness comes from above. :) 

Nothing is Better

Sometime it's better to do nothing than to do anything at all. You ever notice when you say something maybe you shouldn't have said, then try to correct yourself, you end up saying something worse instead? Ouch, it pretty much sucks, and we've all done it, right? 

This goes with relationships in life too. Some relationships are better left alone to fizzle out, or be done with completely. With internet, facebook, myspace, twitter, texting, voicemail, email, and on and on, it's hard to just leave things alone. 

Heavenly Father will forgive us if we ask Him, but will we forgive ourselves? 

It's can be hard to ask for forgiveness, even from our Heavenly Father, but sometimes it's even harder to ask it form someone else. Especially if that person would rather you never talk to them again, because either they don't care, or they are still very upset. With people that are upset, they eventually come around sooner or later. With people who just don't care, well, then it's no longer asking that person for forgiveness, but forgiving yourself. Accepting the situation for whatever it may be, and moving on. The more we push the situation, the worse it gets when someone would rather you drop the situation than bring it up again. 

I struggle with accepting things as they are. I feel as though I have the control to make things all better. Most often, I just need to make things okay with myself. To know not everyone is going to accept who I am or where I am coming from. Not everyone has to love me or even accept me. The only person that really needs to be okay with me, is me. I'm the only one who needs to be with myself day-in and day-out. So why should other's opinions of who we are or what we believe really matter?